LOVE ISN'T REAL. The "love" anyone my age sees and thinks they feel on this Earth is nothing but lust and a desire for companionship. Maybe that's all love actually is, and if it is, what the fuck is all the hype about? I am the son of divorced parents and I just found out that a close relative just got divorced as well. Maybe that's what sparked the need to "blog about it" but I've really been questioning the idea of "love" lately and I keep getting dragged to the conclusion that this awesome feeling we're all supposed to experience at some point in our lives is just another false promise placed on our laps. If love is real, then why do more than 50% of marriages end in divorce? Does love really run out, or was it never really there in the first place? How many people out there got married out of necessity or just the fear of being alone forever? Has marriage become something we're supposed to do and we force it because we feel like it's the right thing? How many happy, married couples have you actually seen? Sadly, I know the answers to all of these questions, because I've seen it all play out before me. The love that ancient scholars spoke of either never existed or has completely deteriorated thanks in part to the downfall of our society and everything that was once good on the Earth. Lust prevails over love. We fuck our way through relationships, and we fuck our way out of them. In case you didn't know, but most people do because for some reason I'm always open about it, I'm a virgin. As often as I joke about wanting to "go out and just get laid tonight," I actually do plan on waiting for some one I honestly, truly feel a strong affection towards. However, I'm at a point where I don't even know if that will happen because so far in life, all I've felt towards girls that I've met and "talked" to is that same lust and desire for companionship that fool people into "falling in love." I'm also at a point where I don't care. I've found things that I'd rather put my heart into than a girl who I have a 50% chance of not caring about at some point in the future. I'd rather make sure I'm happy than be another statistic. END RANT. Thanks for reading if you did. Feel free to get at me if you wish to converse on this subject.
Song of the day: "Wasted" by The Carrier
And no you'll never see how much better off I am without you next to me.
I'd rather hold the hand of loneliness than have your blood save me.
To be the life in my veins, to be the heartbeat in my steps, to have those nights I never slept.
To get my wasted time back."
Well, completely agreed on all that. I'm honestly deathly afraid of marriage, seeing how my parents don't even talk and come to me with their complaints about the other.
ReplyDeleteAnd I don't want to have a kid and make them go through that either.
So maybe I'll be a swinger my whole life and focus on real life accomplishments.
Rant more often.
Fallon just wants you to have that affection for her, lol, jk jk
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